27 Apr 2023, 16:44:40
ADHD / Autism

- ☐ Significant problems sticking with the same task.
- ☐ I interupt people alot.
- ☐ I talk over people, especially on the phone.
- ☐ Can't follow group conversations, I just drift off and then don't hear what people say. Even 1 on 1 I can lose focus or seem to ignore people. Makes me seem ignorant.
- ☐ Don't like meeting new people (ok on spur of the moment - but anxiety if it's planned and I have time to think about it)
- ☐ Banging on about a single subject
- ☐ Hyper aware - not a huge problem except seems to irritate other people
- ☐ Expressionless face - causes communication issues and people think I'm sad or cross far too often. Especially people who don't know me.
- ☐ Struggle to read other people's mood. Can think people are cross with me, so I ask them which makes them cross!
- ☐ Tendancy to think violently, 30 years ago this could result in fights etc. Had it under control in 99% of situations for last 20 years.
- ☐ Becoming more introverted, the more I recognise I'm annoying people or have annoyed people the less I want to interact with them. When I reflect on this it upsets me
- ☐ Wider family think I'm becoming steadily more argumentative. So talk to them less and less. I get frustrated when they don't seem to listen or they misunderstand me.
- ☐ Anger issues, I have anger flare ups. Get really cross or frustrated at simple things. Thought it was medication or lack of sleep, but now not sure.
- ☐ Daughter is being diagnosed currently. Possibly ADHD, BPD or something in that area. They don't think autism.
- ☐ I seem to be hyper analytical, over think things repeatedly. I complicate things.
- ☐ Constantly seem to be driven to know how things work / explain things. As a kid 6yrs old I used to take thinks a part I wasn't supposed too. Radio, TV, lawnmower!
- ☐ Struggle with motivation. Hate starting most stuff. Feel lazy but am really driven by task achievements etc. So often tormented. Unhappy if I don't look back on the day and see what I've achieved but often bored of what I'm doing. I start alot of stuff but frequently give up at 75% ish complete.
- ☐ Concerned that I'm neuro divergent in some way.
- ☐ Struggled with sleep and stopping thinking all my life. Used to read under covers with torch until 3am when I was primary age. Still struggle with sleep now.
- ☐ Dropped out of college. But have an IQ140+ Seem to have high spatial awareness. Also seem to be inventive/problem solver, it seems I think differently but not certain of this.
- ☐ People skills are not terrible but I feel like I struggle. Get told I lecture people, but don't mean to or want to. I accidentally upset people and don't mean too. Some people think I'm cold.
- ☐ Anxiety especially in social situations. I seem ok when I know people.
- ☐ Short term memory and concentration are terrible. I flit from one task to the next sometimes very quickly, like every 2 minutes. But I can hyperfocus for days, weeks, months. I sometimes forget to eat, drink for many hours.
- ☐ I sometimes wake up and randomly have the traits of depression/suicidal thoughts.
- ☐ I am often conflicted with logic v my emotions. I know my emotion is wrong/innappropriate but still struggle to change it.
- ☐ I can't turn my brain off and some times that is so infuriating I have to
- ☐ Other than that life is great.